8mm

Maybe tomorrow, I'll find my way home

Prison Break的结局来得那么突然，那么tragic。在这样一部没有人会告诉你“everything is gonna be all right"的剧里，第一次有人这样告诉你，你以为一切都会好了，你以为一切都结束了，所以就真的结束了。 然后这样的结束却是那样的坦然，乃至有些太坦荡，只让人觉得心中空空，说去了，竟真的就如此去了。

然后巴黎就突然莫名地下起雨来，CD机缓缓放着Melody Gardot的一张My one and my only one thrill,管弦乐配着哀伤的女声，我站起来，关上灯，光着脚踩在凉凉的木地板上，陈旧的木地板发出嘎吱的声响，伴随着雨点轻轻打在窗前的滴答，窗外泛红的天空里，埃菲尔铁塔和往常一样，放出绚烂的光芒。

巴黎时间21点50分，这是个星期六的夜，一个总让人喜欢怀念的夜。

 

I am at ease in the arms of a woman.
Although now,
most of my days i spend alone.

A thousand miles,
from the place i was born.
But when she wakes me, 
she takes me back home. 

Now, most days,
i spend like a child.
Who's afraid of ghosts in my mind.
I know, there aint nothing out there.
I'm still afraid to turn on the lights.

I am at ease in the arms of a woman.
Although now,
most of my days i spend alone.
A thousand miles,
the place i was born.
When she wakes me, 
she takes me back home. 

A thousand miles,
the place i was born.
When she wakes me,
she takes me back home. 

I am at ease in the arms of a woman.
Although now,
most of my days i spend alone. 
A thousand miles,
from the place i was born.
When she wakes me,
she takes me..
Ya, when she wakes me,
she takes me back home. 
When she wakes me,
she takes me back home.

The Economist 上周的封面文章，链接在这里

http://www.economist.com/opinion/displaystory.cfm?story_id=12263158

看到最后之一段的时候，不禁唏嘘

This is a black week. Those of us who have supported financial capitalism are open to the charge that the system we championed has merely enabled a few spivs to get rich. But it helped produce healthy economic growth and low inflation for a generation. It would take a very big recession indeed to wipe out those gains. Do not forget that in the debate ahead.

我是学金融的，对于金融系统的发展和经济的增长的紧密联系深信不移，在谣言四起的今日，这样一本权威的杂志，能够坚持自己的信念，实在可贵。

生活越发趋于平静
期待和期许不知道被那疲惫的内心藏在了何处
生活变得什么都不是
自己也什么都不是
只想写一本日志，一本只有陌生人光临的日志
不曾有人知道，也不会再有人知道
然后
可以沉醉于那陌生的疑惑的目光
在这深深的夜里
记起一切和悲伤有关的事情

So please

你的毛衣跟着我回家了
我把它摆在我的房间
它曾经陪你走过几条街
它曾经陪你喝了好几杯冰的咖啡
陪你远走高飞拍照留念
也曾经静静的躺在你的衣柜
你的毛衣跟着我回家了
我把它摆在我的房间
它这样覆盖了我的冬天
它就要刺痛了我最敏锐爱的幻觉
陪你远走高飞拍照留念
天热了静静的躺在你的衣柜
我的冬天就要来了
我的冬天就要来了
你的身体跟着我回家了
我把它摆在我的房间
它曾经被你暂时借给谁
它现在静静的躺在我的衣柜
天热了静静的躺在我的衣柜

 

Here's a song from India Arie, originally by Don Henley

The Heart Of The Matter  

 

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

Like A Star
Corinne Bailey Rae

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh.,..
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

Capital inflows to China

Hot and bothered
Jun 26th 2008 | BEIJING
From The Economist print edition

Despite strict capital controls, China is being flooded by the biggest wave of speculative capital ever to hit an emerging economy
A POPULAR game this summer among watchers of the Chinese economy is to guess the size of speculative capital or “hot money” flowing into the country. One clue is that although China’s trade surplus has started to shrink this year, its foreign-exchange reserves are growing at an ever faster pace. The bulk of its net foreign-currency receipts now comes from capital inflows, not the current-account surplus.

According to leaked official figures, China’s foreign-exchange reserves jumped by $115 billion during April and May, to $1.8 trillion. In the five months to May, reported reserves swelled by $269 billion, 20% more than in the same period of last year. But even this understates the true rate at which the People’s Bank of China (PBOC) has been piling up foreign exchange.

 Logan Wright, a Beijing-based analyst at Stone & McCarthy, an economic-research firm, has done some statistical detective work to make sense of the figures. The first problem is that reported reserves exclude the transfer of foreign exchange from the PBOC to the China Investment Corporation, the country’s sovereign-wealth fund. The reserve figures have also been reduced in book-keeping terms this year by the PBOC “asking” banks to use dollars to pay for the extra reserves that they are now required to hold at the central bank. Adding these two items to reported reserves, Mr Wright reckons that total foreign-exchange assets rose by an astonishing $393 billion in the first five months of 2008 (see chart), more than double the increase in the same period last year.

China’s trade surplus and foreign direct investment (FDI) explain only 30% of this. Deducting investment income and the increase in the value of non-dollar reserves as the dollar has fallen still leaves an unexplained residual of $214 billion, equivalent to over $500 billion at an annual rate. Some economists use this as a proxy for hot-money inflows. But some of it may reflect non-speculative transactions, such as foreign borrowing by Chinese firms. Mr Wright therefore estimates that China received up to $170 billion in hot money in the first five months of 2008. This far exceeds anything previously experienced by any emerging economy.

Michael Pettis, an economist at Peking University’s Guanghua School of Management, reckons that speculative inflows during that period were perhaps well over $200 billion, because hot money also comes into China through companies overstating FDI and over-invoicing exports. Foreign firms are bringing in more capital than they need for investment: the net inflow of FDI is 60% higher than a year ago, yet the actual use of this money for fixed investment has fallen by 6%. Some of it has been diverted elsewhere.

It is one thing to deduce how much money is coming in. It is another to work out where it is going and how it gets past China’s strict capital controls. The stockmarket, which continues to plunge (see article), is no home for hot money. Some has gone into property. The lion’s share is in bog-standard bank deposits. An interest rate of just over 4% on yuan deposits compared with 2% on dollars, combined with an expected appreciation in the yuan, offers a seemingly risk-free profit for those who can get money into China.

It comes in via various circuitous routes. Big Western investment funds which care about liquidity would find it hard to move money into China, although rumours abound of hedge funds that are investing money through Chinese partners. Trade and investment offers a big loophole for Chinese and foreign firms. Resident individuals can use the $50,000 annual limit for bringing money into China from abroad—many also use their friends’ and relatives’ quotas. Another big loophole lets Hong Kong residents transfer 80,000 yuan ($11,600) a day into mainland bank deposits.

The government is trying to crack down, but that risks shifting the activity towards underground money exchangers. And if the government were to increase its monitoring of FDI and trade flows, the extra bureaucracy could harm the real economy. China needs to reduce the incentive for destabilising capital inflows, rather than block the channels.

Massive hot-money inflows present two dangers to China’s economy. One is that capital could suddenly flow out, as it did from other East Asian countries during the financial crisis a decade ago and Vietnam this year. China’s economy is protected by its current-account surplus and vast reserves, but its banking system would be hurt by an abrupt withdrawal.

A more immediate concern is that capital inflows will fuel inflation. The more foreign capital that flows in, the more dollars the central bank must buy to hold down the yuan, which, in effect, means printing money. It then mops up this excess liquidity by issuing bills (as “sterilisation”) or by lifting banks’ reserve requirements. But all this complicates monetary policy. China’s interest rates are below the inflation rate, but the PBOC fears that higher rates would attract yet more hot money and so end up adding to inflationary pressures. The central bank has instead tried to curb inflation by allowing the yuan to rise at a faster pace against the dollar—by an annual rate of 18% in the first quarter of this year. But this encouraged investors to bet on future appreciation, exacerbating capital inflows. Since April the pace of appreciation has been much reduced, in a vain effort to discourage speculators.

Mass sterilisation
Some economists argue that the problems caused by hot money have been exaggerated. After all, the PBOC has so far succeeded in sterilising most of the increase in reserves. Inflation, at an annual rate of 7.7% in May, has also started to decline, and the impact of last week’s rise in fuel prices is likely to be offset over the next couple of months by falling food-price inflation.

The snag is that money-supply growth would explode without sterilisation, which is now close to its limit. It is becoming very costly for the central bank to mop up liquidity by selling bills, so it is now relying more heavily on raising banks’ reserve requirements (the PBOC pays banks only 1.9% on their reserves, against over 4% on bills). Since January 2007 the minimum reserve ratio has been raised 16 times, from 9% to 17.5%. But it cannot climb much higher without hurting banks’ profits. To curb future inflation, China therefore needs to stem the flood of capital.

One solution would be a large one-off appreciation of the yuan so that investors no longer see it as a one-way bet. This, in turn, would give the PBOC room to raise interest rates. The snag is that the yuan would probably have to be wrenched perhaps 20% higher to alter investors’ expectations, and this is unacceptable to Chinese leaders, especially when global demand has slowed and some exporters are already being squeezed.

This implies that monetary policy will remain too loose. The longer that the torrent of hot money continues and interest rates remain too low, the bigger the risk that underlying inflation will creep up.

 

在资本强流动性的条件下，贸易顺差长期持续，央行为了维持汇率稳定不变大量购买美国债券，从而促成了外汇储备的增加，为了保持央行balance sheet的平衡，央行必须发行更多本国货币或者通过open market从而使balance sheet的另一端得以增加，在某种程度上央行失去了对于货币政策的控制，是否这就是连创纪录的通胀压力的来源？

 

而作为alternative的sterilisation也是痛苦的，在上文提到，再进行下去的即将威胁到商业银行的利润。方法只剩下对于资本流动性的控制，或者主动升值乃至放弃固定汇率政策。近日政府新发布的规定强制出口商将其收入先放在临时帐户上一证明这是正常的结算收入而非通过夸大的方式涌入的热钱，如果能成功实现的话，在一定程度上降低资本的流动性，从而重拾对于货币政策的控制还是可以实现的。

不过，我在想，是不是该是时间逐步采纳自由浮动汇率政策了？

不过奥运会之前估计是不可能了，但是在我看来，这始终是大势所趋

总而言之，这篇文章就是Mundell-Fleming模型的最好实例。。。

新房子，空无一人
我坐在同样空旷的厨房，特地选择的淡黄色灯光却没有给我带来任何温暖。
真的是自己想要的么?不禁这样问自己
习惯于陷入悲伤的思绪的我，总是看不得别人伤心，于是在一阵忙碌的空白之后，你那些凌乱的悲伤的文字，将我拉入这无尽的夜幕中，黑暗中却总想哭泣。
喜悦伴随着悲伤，我的生活却甜得苦涩
我开始迷恋相拥的温暖，以抵御这心底传来的阵阵寒冷，却又不断地问自己，这样的日子里，你该怎么度过？
我眼睁睁看着说过的誓言变成谎言,罪恶的感觉在这样的夜里压得我说不出话，我无力抗拒。
遥远的距离却伴随着曾经甜蜜的期待，而踌躇的情绪浮现之时，我竟还留有相拥的勇气。
再也说不清这勇气从何而来，或许这就是所谓的解脱？
也许真的，当你真真正正地坐在我面前，一切曾以为无比复杂的事情都会变得简单，无法说出口的言语也可以慢慢道来，是否该庆幸，这种亲近的感觉，从来都未失去。
所以我总还是期待着和你的重逢，那些疯狂的事情总还是要去做。
And You're never one of my ordinary friends, you're my beloved sister.
然后我想对你说
撇开这一切，我真的想你了
我并不知道此刻什么该说什么不该说，所以希望这句话，并不会伤害你。
可我真的想你了。
所以，你真的要好好的

 

再见
张震岳
思念是一种病

我怕我没有机会
跟你说一声再见
因为也许(就)再也见不到你
宁愿我要离开
熟悉的地方的你
要分离
我眼泪就掉下去
我会牢牢记住你的脸
我会珍惜你给的思恋
这些日子在我心中永远都不会抹去
我不能答应你
我是否会再回来
不回头
不回头的走下去
我怕我没有机会
跟你说一声再见
因为也许(就)再也见不到你
宁愿我要离开
熟悉的地方的你
要分离
我眼泪就掉下去
我会牢牢记住你的脸
我会珍惜你给的思恋
这些日子在我心中永远都不会抹去
我不能答应你
我是否会再回来
不回头
不回头的走下去
我会牢牢记住你的脸
我会珍惜你给的思恋
这些日子在我心中永远都不会抹去
我不能答应你
我时候会再回来
不回头
不回头的走下去
不回头的走下去

By ROBERT A. GUTH
June 5, 2008; Page A1
The Wall Street Journal

Oneof the most successful business partnerships in history wascomingunraveled. It was early 2000, and Bill Gates had relinquished thechiefexecutive's job at Microsoft Corp. to Steve Ballmer -- for thefirsttime taking a back seat to his college pal and right-hand man of20years.

Mr. Ballmer got the title. But Mr. Gates retained thepower, triggeringa yearlong struggle between the two men that until nowhas remainedlargely under wraps.

Things became so bitter that,on one occasion, Mr. Gates stormed out ofa meeting in a huff after ashouting match in which Mr. Ballmer jumpedto the defense of severalcolleagues, according to an individualpresent at the time. After theexchange, Mr. Ballmer seemed"remorseful," the person said.

Theconflict between the two men paralyzed business-strategy decisionsthatthe company still wrestles with today. Board members stepped in totryto mediate a truce.

The differences between the two men ended,Mr. Gates and otherMicrosoft executives say, when in 2001 Mr. Gates hadan epiphany,recognizing he needed to accept his role as No. 2. "I hadto change,"Mr. Gates says.

On June 27, Mr. Gates will fully stepaside from management atMicrosoft, ending daily work there to focus onphilanthropy. If thetransition goes smoothly, it will be in large partbecause the clasheight years ago forced the two men to grapple with thecrucial questionof whether Mr. Gates can let his friend run the companyunencumbered.Microsoft used the lessons of that crisis as it plannedfor theultimate succession.
'BUFFERING TO EACH OTHER'

Readedited excerpts from The Wall Street Journal's interview with BillGatesand Steve Ballmer, as the Microsoft executives talk to staffreporterRobert Guth about their relationship, Mr. Gates's transitionand thefuture of the company.

This summer, Mr. Ballmer moves into thecorner office inhabited foryears by Mr. Gates, who will work only oneday a week and serve asboard chairman.

Once Mr. Gates leaves,"I'm not going to need him for anything. That'sthe principle," Mr.Ballmer says. "Use him, yes, need him, no."

The handover marksthe end to a storied business partnership thatcreated a new industry,spawned many millionaires, and redefined howthe world uses computers.Under Mr. Gates, Microsoft also fought one ofthe most heated antitrustbattles in U.S. history and created thepersonal fortune that he is nowdeploying against global problems suchas AIDS.

Mr. Ballmer'schallenge is to assure that Microsoft's best days aren'tbehind it. Thecompany faces one of the widest sets of obstacles in its33-yearhistory, as nimble rivals try to chip away its traditionalsoftwarebusiness and broad industry shifts force it to build entirelynewbusinesses. To repel rising titans like Google Inc., Microsoft istakingunprecedented steps, such as its recent bid for Yahoo Inc.Although thateffort is now shelved, it would have been the softwarecompany's largestacquisition.

Elder Statesman

Messrs. Ballmer and Gatesare attempting a tricky feat by navigating an"ambassadorial succession"-- when a founder steps aside but stillmakes himself available as anelder statesman, says Yale School ofManagement Professor JeffreySonnenfeld. They have had eight years ofrehearsal, but the approachstill has its perils: History is riddledwith company founders whostifle their creation when they don'tentirely break free.

Mr. Gates and Steve Ballmer introduced the Windows Vista operating software in January 2007 in New York.

Inaddition, if Microsoft later needs radical change, it would be rarethatloyal insiders like Mr. Ballmer can "really tear intotheirinheritance," says Joseph L. Bower, Baker Foundation ProfessorofBusiness Administration at Harvard Business School.

The weightof the transfer on the two men -- both 52 years old, and soclose theyoften complete each other's sentences -- was clear at aMarch retreat ofMicrosoft's top executives. Mr. Ballmer gave theopening remarks to thegroup, his eyes streaming with tears as he notedthat it would be thelast such meeting with Mr. Gates and Jeff Raikes,a veteran executiveand friend who is joining Mr. Gates's philanthropy.

Last month,in a joint interview with Mr. Gates, Mr. Ballmer's eyeswelled up as thetwo men talked about building Microsoft. "It is alittle like givingbirth to something. Bill gave birth but I was kindof an early nanny inraising this child," Mr. Ballmer said. "There arefun things we get todo together, that's all nice. I mean, it'simportant, but this is..."

"...this is what we did," said Mr. Gates, smiling.

Theirrelationship started at Harvard University in the mid-1970s,where thetwo played poker and thrived by pushing their intellectuallimits. Oncethey skipped a graduate economics class for the entiresemester, thenteamed up a few days before the final exam to try tolearn the materialall at once. Mr. Ballmer recalls he got a 97; Mr.Gates a 99.

Elementsof their early friendship -- competition and hard work --definedMicrosoft's own culture. Mr. Gates focused on technology andbusinessstrategy, while Mr. Ballmer took on diverse roles. Among otherthings,he was Microsoft's first business manager, and manageddevelopment ofthe first version of Windows and North American sales.Later, heexpanded Microsoft world-wide.

Even as the company grew, the twomen could jointly manage almost everyaspect of the business. "For acertain size organization, it wasbeautiful," Mr. Gates says.

Theirtight relationship allowed for heated arguments that wouldquicklysubside. Indeed, numerous executives say this was a key part ofthedecision-making culture.


Their centralized management of thecompany started to break down inthe late 1990s as Microsoft grew incomplexity. The U.S. Department ofJustice alleged that Microsoft hadabused its monopoly, and the companyfought to keep from being split up.It faced an onslaught ofcompetitors and was rankled by the threat posedby the Internet and theflight of Microsoft's employees to Web start-ups.

Embattled,Mr. Gates sought help. Eventually, in January 2000, he gavehis chiefexecutive title to Mr. Ballmer. Mr. Gates became Microsoft's"chiefsoftware architect," a new position that, in theory, was belowthat ofMr. Ballmer.

Soon, the two men clashed as Mr. Ballmer tried toassert himself in hisnew job. As the firm's iconic leader, Mr. Gatesstill held sway thatwasn't tied to a title: In meetings Mr. Gates wouldinterject withsarcasm, undermining Mr. Ballmer in front of otherexecutives, Mr.Gates and other Microsoft executives say.

Debatesspanned various subjects -- personnel decisions, the Xboxvideogamemachine then being developed, and even the future ofMicrosoft's coreWindows software, Microsoft executives said.

Some majordecisions got stuck due to the impasse, Messrs. Gates andBallmer said.In one case, two vice presidents clashed over the futureof NetDocs, apromising effort to offer software programs such as wordprocessing overthe Internet. The issue: Because NetDocs riskedcannibalizing sales ofMicrosoft's cash-cow Office programs, someexecutives wanted NetDocskilled.

Messrs. Gates and Ballmer were unable to settle on aplan. First,NetDocs ballooned to a 400-person staff, then it got foldedinto theOffice group in early 2001, where it died.

OtherMicrosoft executives tried to step in, calling Messrs. Gates andBallmerinto a meeting with a clear message: Your struggles threatenthecompany, according to people familiar with the situation.

Board's Concerns

Microsoft'sboard held its own discussions with the two men, and alsodispatchedDave Marquardt, a director and early Microsoft investor, tohaveperiodic dinners with the two to help sort through the troubles.

"Theboard was really concerned about what was going to happen," saysJonShirley, a former Microsoft president who sits on the company'sboard.

Thestress on Mr. Ballmer was clear one morning in January 2001 whilehe wasin Paris for an annual review of Microsoft's businesses. In hishotelroom at 3 a.m. after a long day of meetings, Mr. Ballmer posed atellingquestion to Mr. Raikes, the veteran Microsoft executive: "Whatis theCEO's job at Microsoft?"

At the urging of the board and theirwives, Mr. Gates and Mr. Ballmeragreed in February 2001 to work outtheir differences over dinner atthe Polaris restaurant in the BellevueClub Hotel a few miles fromMicrosoft's campus. The two men declined todiscuss details of thatmeeting, saying only that they needed to sortout their roles, with Mr.Gates as the "junior partner" to Mr. Ballmer's"senior partner."

Mr. Gates concluded that it was he who neededto change most. "Steve isall about being on the team, and beingcommitted to the mutual goals,"Mr. Gates said. "So I had to figure out,what are my behaviors thatdon't reinforce that? What is it aboutsarcasm in a meeting?" he said."Or just going, 'This is completelyscrewed up'?"

Mr. Ballmer says that, as the top executive, hehad to learn when tooverride decisions and when to just "let thingsgo," he said. "We gotit figured out," he said.

Soon, Mr. Gatesstarted to hold back negative comments in meetings.During onedeliberation among the executives who reported directly toMr. Ballmer,Mr. Gates deferred to Mr. Ballmer on an importantdecision, promptingMicrosoft executives to silently glance at eachother with surprise,recalls Microsoft Vice President Mich Matthews.

Making an Imprint

Gradually,Mr. Ballmer made his imprint. He restructured the company togive moredecision-making power to executives, and elevated people withgeneralmanagement experience into positions previously heldbytechnology-focused executives. He also worked to settleMicrosoft'smany lawsuits, taking a more conciliatory line than Mr.Gates typicallyhad, Microsoft executives say.

Mr. Gates,meantime, focused on guiding Microsoft's long-termtechnology strategy.Among other projects, he coached three youngermanagers on how to builda case for Microsoft's entry intobusiness-communications software. Thatwork was later launched as amajor new business in "unifiedcommunications," or merging email, voicemail and other businesscommunications.

In 2003, Mr. Gates let Mr. Ballmer lead secrettalks to buy Germansoftware maker SAP AG, while he handled thetechnology-planning side ofthe talks and provided guidance in line withhis job as Microsoft'schairman, says a person familiar with thesituation. (Microsoft endedup not buying the company.)

Microsoftalso started laying the foundation for Mr. Gates's eventualdeparture,in March 2005 buying Groove Networks Inc. to bring itsfounder, softwarepioneer Ray Ozzie, in house to complement Mr. Gatesas a technologyguru. Mr. Gates once described Mr. Ozzie -- known asthe father of LotusNotes information-sharing software -- as "one ofthe top fiveprogrammers in the universe."


Messrs. Gates and Ballmer hadsettled into their new roles by early2006, when Mr. Gates decided toend full-time work at Microsoft,setting a two-year timeline for makingthe move.

One concern for Mr. Ballmer was how to preserve Mr.Gates's role oftechnology visionary inside the company. Looking forguidance, Mr.Ballmer says he cracked open a book from his college yearsby MaxWeber, the German sociologist, on how organizations handlethedisappearance of "charismatic leaders."

On March 28, 2006,Mr. Ballmer described the book to Microsoft's boardat a retreat in theSan Juan Islands near Seattle, Microsoft executivessay. One way for afirm to retain the charisma of a departing leader,Mr. Weber wrote some100 years ago, is for the leader to name his ownreplacement.

Mr.Gates did just that. In June 2006, he named his own two successorsastech czars: Craig Mundie, one of Mr. Gates's chief technicaladvisers,and Mr. Ozzie, the programmer.

"The world has had a tendency tofocus a disproportionate amount ofattention on me," Mr. Gates said atthe time of the announcement. Hethen gave his successors some elbowroom, disappearing on a seven-weeksabbatical that included a trip toAfrica.

In an interview at that time, Mr. Ballmer compared theirrelationshipto that of brothers. "I think brothers tend to argue a lot,and somehowthey stay brothers and stay connected," he said. "I thinkBill and Ihave figured out how to do all of that."

Aborted Yahoo Bid

Leadinginto this year, evidence that the transfer of power has takenhold is inMicrosoft's now-aborted bid for Yahoo. Buying Yahoo couldhave helpedMicrosoft expand its online-advertising business and buildonlineversions of its personal-computer software -- the sametransition itattempted with NetDocs, the project that died back in2001. But at aprice tag of nearly $50 billion in cash and stock, thebid had its risksand would have been the largest acquisition by far ata company thathasn't done many large deals.

Mr. Gates stayed largely on thesidelines, and notes that it was Mr.Ballmer behind the bid, tapping Mr.Ozzie to sort through how the twocompanies would merge theirtechnologies.

Some Microsoft insiders say Mr. Gates -- whotraditionally favoredMicrosoft building its own way into markets --wasn't a major proponentof the deal. Whatever the case, Mr. Gatesstands by his man. "I don'thave a different point of view on the Yahoothing than Steve does," hesaid.

The question remains if Mr.Gates can resist the temptation to diveback in if Microsoft hits acrisis point. Over the past decade, severalhigh-profile founders jumpedback in when their companies were undersiege, including Steve Jobs, whoremade Apple Inc., and Michael Dell ofDell Inc. and Howard Schultz ofStarbucks Corp. "There is a saviorcomplex that says, 'I'm the only onewho can restore it to its glory,'"says David A. Nadler, senior partnerat consulting firm Oliver WymanGroup.

Mr. Gates says he's happy to help on some long-term projects, but won't return full-time. "I am done with that," he said.

 

Département MIDO

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20/05/08

LOVE一文发表之后，我收到一个朋友的评论，全文如下：

 “费力地在脑子里搜索着什么,但是却得不出什么结论.对于爱这个问题我已经抛开很久了,因为不会有好的答案.不是我悲观,人的境遇总是可好可差,好能好到什么情境,坏能坏到什么地步.一切都只是我们内心的期望的浮升,我们内心对已经拥有的不满足.在人生旅行中，最好是有一位称心的旅伴，其次好是没有旅伴，最坏是有一个不称心的旅伴。有比较地看,我们能够更好地把握自己的境遇.还是那句老话,珍惜已经拥有的,人就会感到他的拥有的价值.
   
    爱的吝啬不是谁的错,而是所有人的错.我们都只是想把爱给我们自己认为值得的人,却忽视了有那么多人需要一份普通的爱.我们的爱,从这个角度说,是达不到博爱的境界的。我不知道是什么让我们的爱带有偏见的色彩，我们纯净的内心总是有着各种各样的偏见.事实上使交往具有价值的不是交往本身，而是交往者各自的价值。高质量的爱总是发生在两个优秀的独立人格之间，它的实质是双方互相由衷的欣赏和尊敬。因此，重要的是使自己真正有价值，配得上做一个高质量的朋友，这是一个人能够为爱所做的首要贡献。

    尊重他人,亲疏随缘。帕斯卡尔说：“我们由于交往而形成了精神和感情，但我们也由于交往而败坏着精神和感情。”捧在手心里等待别人欣赏的爱，是怎样的一种爱呢,既亵渎了爱，又羞辱了孤独。
                      
    人们常常误认为，那些热心于社交的人是一些慷慨之士。泰戈尔说,他们只是在挥霍，不是在奉献，而挥霍者往往缺乏真正的慷慨。挥霍是把自己不珍惜的东西拿出来，慷慨是把自己珍惜的东西拿出去。社交场上的热心人正是这样，他们不觉得自己的时间、精力和心情有什么价值，所以毫不在乎地把它们挥霍掉。相反，一个珍惜生命的人必定宁愿在孤独中从事创造，然后把最好的成果奉献给世界。可是能够这样做的人少之又少,我们根本无法在这个浮躁的世界里把握自己的欲望,只是睁着眼睛到处寻找,拼命索取.

    所以说,有真正博爱之精神者,堪有真爱,堪当大任.而我们的世界,并不是如此.”

 

该怎么说，如此深刻的思考似乎已经离我远去，中文阅读的匮乏也无法让我思考更多，很多时候我只是自言自语，所描绘的内容总是似曾相识，无法摆脱的迷宫。

可是接着我又对自己说：“或许，生活才是最好的老师呢？”

中学的时候喜欢看些文学期刊，《人民文学》，《收获》之类的，而每次打动我的，或许并不是那精湛的言语，而是面对着无处而来的阵阵裸露的真实，无地自容之后的反省，和那对于未来的些许期望。

转眼间毕业已快三年，如今我的阅读也只局限于些时事经济类期刊，那种花一个晚自习看一本杂志的时候不会再有，我终于不再从别人的生活在了解这世界，我，在通过我的生活，去触摸，去感受，那一直所渴求的，也无处逃避的真实。

三年间我大概错过了太多的事情，却也从生活中学到了更多，平坦的内心或许总有所缺，其他地方也算填满。

就像现在巴黎时间6月1日21点49分，我看着窗外的夕阳，不经意地笑了出来。

 

Change
Tracy Chapman
Telling stories

If you knew that you would die today,
Saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

If you knew that you would be alone,
Knowing right, being wrong,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings up pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

Are you so upright you can't be bent?
If it comes to blows are you so sure you won't be crawling?
If not for the good, why risk falling?
Why risk falling?

If everything you think you know,
Makes your life unbearable,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you'd broken every rule and vow,
And hard times come to bring you down,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today,
If you saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?

 

If you knew that you would die today,
Saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

If you knew that you would be alone,
Knowing right, being wrong,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings up pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

Are you so upright you can't be bent?
If it comes to blows are you so sure you won't be crawling?
If not for the good, why risk falling?
Why risk falling?

If everything you think you know,
Makes your life unbearable,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you'd broken every rule and vow,
And hard times come to bring you down,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today,
If you saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?

 

我最近一直在思考这样一个问题：在这样一个吵闹的世界里，如何才能安静下来，踏踏实实地做点事情， 就比如现在离考试还有一周，已经复习了不知道几周的自己，在这样的礼拜六的晚上，终于安安稳稳地坐在电脑前，窗外华灯初上，房间如生活一般乱成一团，脑子里，却只有Tracy Chapman轻声吟唱的Change.

这样忙碌的一段时间里，身边其实发生了太多的事情。这世界的悲惨遭遇总是让我心痛，悲伤的眼泪止住之后，所有人瞬间都开始珍惜生命，我也是。我对于这世界，原本是没抱什么希望的，有条理的组织或许可以克服某些困难，但想要真的拯救这个世界，除了期待奇迹，我想，人们更需要的，或许是爱吧。

所以我说道；
"I don't believe in God, but in Love. If Love was firstly introduced by Jesus Christ, it would be the most valuable thing he did for human beings"

然而在这样浮躁的社会里谈论爱似乎有些太不现实，我曾尝试着向身边的人提起，却每每得到失望的答复。现实或许教会了我们什么对自己是好什么对自己是坏，现实却也让我们遗忘了什么是对大家好，和什么对大家是坏。所以生活在这样缺少的爱的地方，我总感觉到寒冷，迷离的眼神和盲目的表情总是一幕幕而过，我躲在那个角落，可怜巴巴地向路人兜售着爱，却没有人能看见，我手中捧着的那些温暖的光亮。

这样的问题总会引起我一连串的思考，却又似乎在刹那之中将我从价值的追寻中解放。对于生命的价值一再怀疑的我，再看到Love这个词语，终于能够得到一丝慰藉，而这片刻的宁静，对于处在这喧闹世界的我，显得过于珍贵。

Delphine却总也无法理解我对于生活的态度，缺少了宗教信仰的我，在无助的时候，其实也只有通过帮助别人来让自己感觉好受。我庆幸我没有被无所不能的神所拯救，这让那些经受的痛苦背负的重担显得那么真实，一直早早习惯和麻木，不再有抱怨，有的只是习惯性的抗争和挣扎。对于生命中某些东西的渴求只会让我拥有给予更多的渴望，越是缺乏关心的人，越是希望可以关心到别人。

于是我对她说:“我不爱上帝，但我爱你们每一个人。”

Rags to Rags
Eels
Rags To Rags (And Extra Previously Unreleased Tracks)

There's a spider crawling on the bathroom mirror
Right on top of my right eye
And I cant stop staring back
How did I get this way
Take a big look at a living lie

Rags to rags and rust to rust
How do you stand when youve been crushed
So rags to riches was a bust

Sometimes I dream about it
What its like back home
The railroad tracks and the pussywillow
But I had to leave it
Now I go back whenever my tired head hits the pillow

Rags to rags and rust to rust
How do you stand when youve been crushed
So rags to riches was a bust
Busted once again

Well Ill show them one day
That I can buy and sell the world
And one day Ill come through my american dream
But it wont mean a fucking thing

Rags to rags and rust to rust
How do you stand when youve been crushed
So rags to rags and rust to rust
Dont let me go

J'espère
Marc Lavoine&Quynh Anh
L'heure d'été

Je fais des e-mails à tout allure
Tu me réponds « à toute à l’heure »
Tu mets du rouge sur ta figure
Je mets du baume sur mon cœur

J’espère, j’espère, j’espère oh oui, j’espère
C’est mon caractère mmmmm
J’espère.

Comme disait Yoko Ono
Je vais essayer de retrouver ce mot
D’elle la seule chose qu’on partage en frères, en frères,

J’espère, j’espère, j’espère oh oui, j’espère
C’est mon caractère mmmmm
J’espère.

On a envie de faire l’amour
Mais les amours sont diluviennes
Parsemées par le temps qui court
Il n’y a pas d’amours qui tiennent

J’espère, j’espère, j’espère oh oui, j’espère
C’est mon caractère mmmmm
J’espère.

Comme disait Yoko Ono
Je vais essayer de retrouver ce mot
They are the only things we share, en frère,

J’espère, j’espère, j’espère oh oui, j’espère
C’est mon caractère mmmmm
J’espère.

Les étoiles qui fuient font la mesure
Des espèces qui disparaissent

J’espère, j’espère, j’espère oh oui, j’espère
C’est mon caractère mmmmm
J’espère.

下半辈子
林宇中
爱 原色

嘿 变成大人才知道
光着脚到不了的地方
长大长高还是到不了
嘿 不再冒险犯难了
放开了梦想追求成功
那是需要还是一种炫耀

要拼到第几回合
能不能够不够我不知道
想一想下半辈子
这么过有点糟
也许男人只是不知道
什么时候应该求饶
再年轻一次多好

要爱到第几个人
停一停看一看是个问号
只能等下半辈子
一起哭一起笑
好好听听自已的心跳
人生不算无可救药
我这一辈子总要
为自已烦恼

“If we fuck I’m going to feel like shit tomorrow,” she says, only inches, it seems, from feeling like shit.  “That’s OK with me,” he replies. 

That's my favourite lines, from the short film with the name of "Hotel Chevalier" before the film The Darjeeling Limited.

Very good movie, impressive and special